Do any of you guys play Mad Gab? I love Mad Gab.
TIME IS TICKING!
Anyway, this semester, I spent a good four hours consolidating all my syllabi into one master syllabus. It took a loooong time since only one prof gave me a MS Word documents and the rest used PDFs. But it was so worth it. I’ve been relatively on top of my projects and readings! It’s come to a point though, where all I’m realizing is that it is week 10, I have projects and papers due in the last week of April and the first week of May, and then it’s o v e r .
Second semester was so much better in figuring out how to end, but it could always be better. I sort of gave up some areas of my life to prioritize for others and of course, leaving a lot of time for play. I’m a sentimental type of person, and sometimes, I see people in the library or walking down the street and I feel this urgency to meet up for “one last time,” study together for “one last time,” and then I feel very very weepy.
One of my hopes for this blog was to explain the name and the title. I thought it was a clever way of incorporating this “search for the elusive snark” and little witticisms. Recently, as I’m trying to figure out where to go after graduate school, how to plan my ideas for The Mind Garden or whether to jump head first into different nonprofit start-ups, this chunk of Lewis Carroll’s The Hunting of the Snark resonates more deeply.
” ‘But oh, beamish nephew, beware of the day,
If your Snark be a Boojum! For then
You will softly and suddenly vanish away,
And never be met with again!’
I have goals and I have dreams that I am hunting. But if it’s the wrong Snark, if it’s a Boojum, “you will softly and suddenly vanish away, / And never be met with again!” I feel that although I’m surrounded by much passion, sometimes, I feel sad at the meaninglessness of being only full of passion, even if it is properly guided or stems from well-meaning thoughts. I wonder a lot for myself, what does it matter if I gain my whole world, but then lose that which put meaning into it in the first place? (Mt. 16:26, Mk. 8:36, Lk 9:25).