There’s a girl in my class. She came in today after being absent yesterday. She said family stuff happened yesterday and she didn’t want to talk about it.
At this point, I could have understandingly said, “Aw, Owl, what’s wrong! Oh, it’s okay if you don’t want to talk about it. But let me know if you do, I’m here.” And I could have waited because knowing Owl, she always says she doesn’t want to talk about something but then she then starts chatting and chatting. I know I could have shared some of her burden.
Instead, I just politely said, “Okay, whatever you need, Owl,” and went back to my work.
And throughout the day, i just felt so irritated by her. She just.. doesn’t get anything, and every time she misses a day, she falls farther and farther behind.
And now, I’m thoroughly ashamed. I mean, it’s both overwhelming, but also awful, because it really isn’t her fault she is so behind. The sad thing is, tomorrow is a new day and I’m sure she and I will be better. I will ask her for her forgiveness and she will probably forgive me, because she’s sort of a puppy in that way. She’ll always come back.
But I need to stop wounding my kids! Even if on the outside, I’m doing nothing wrong, I know there are ways I could have been a support, but chose not to.