Category Archives: Future Goals

2015 Resolutions

I’ve never been one for resolutions, much less, New Year’s Resolutions… but last year, I tried.

To be honest, I forgot #s 1 and 3 and focused mainly on #2.

I think, I’d want to keep last year’s resolutions and roll them over onto this year’s.

I remember the darkness of 2013.  Most years, I write a quick year-end update to email my friends.  I remember at the end of 2013, I just couldn’t.

2014 was much better. I think that summer in Taiwan, where God reminded me that His plans are so much higher than my own sort of kickstarted the recollections of what it means to be a child of God (These things I call to mind and THEREFORE I have hope).

This year, I spent my winter break hiking in the mountains of Peru.  Everyday, God’s blaring glory challenged, overwhelmed, and swept me.  Everyday, to be faced with the intricacies below my feet, above my head, at a part of the earth where I am gasping for breath and am reminded of my finiteness, was.. healing.

Resolutions?

1) Seek God and His will – not by looking inwards, but looking to scripture. (A tweak of last year’s #1).  This is how one attains wisdom.

2) Again, guard my heart, so that I can guard my mind and words.

3) Practice forgiveness.  *sigh* .  And this part is the hardest.

And maybe adding 4)  Forget the memories that need to be forgotten.

Just another day for thinking and creating

Today was an inspirational day.  I met up this morning with Dr. Reimers to discuss a class project and some personal ideas.  He is seriously one of my favorite teachers here.  Then, in my Charter Schools class,  there were a slew of great speakers with practical advice.. it was so jam-packed.  And then, oh, Mike Feinberg (cofounder of KIPP) decided to swing by.  Regardless of my personal feelings about KIPP schools, it’s times like these where I am amazed and thankful to be at HGSE.

Today I’m working on my Business Model Canvas since tomorrow I’m meeting with a friend to discuss a nascent business plan for The Mind Garden.  Wheeoo wheeoo.  Should’ve started this earlier!

I’m also eating Mike’s Pastry, Ben & Jerry’s Jimmy Fallon’s Late Night Snack Ice cream, and Haagen Dazs five’s coffee ice cream.  🙂

Just read the following article to pump myself up.  An oldie but a goodie.

Disruption is coming, there is no doubt of it! Will it be soon? Will it be virtual? We have little idea at this time as to how it will eventually turn out. What is also clear, however, is that the technology revolution taking place means that when disruption does come, it will be more than mere operational rearrangements; it will be profound and revitalizing.

– Disruption: Coming Soon to A University Near You [forbes.com]

Thyme Ms. Stick King | Three Random Vignettes

Do any of you guys play Mad Gab?  I love Mad Gab.

TIME IS TICKING!

The Charles, right before it starts to bloom.

Anyway, this semester, I spent a good four hours consolidating all my syllabi into one master syllabus.  It took a loooong time since only one prof gave me a MS Word documents and the rest used PDFs.  But it was so worth it.  I’ve been relatively on top of my projects and readings!  It’s come to a point though, where all I’m realizing is that it is week 10, I have projects and papers due in the last week of April and the first week of May, and then it’s o v e .

Second semester was so much better in figuring out how to end, but it could always be better.  I sort of gave up some areas of my life to prioritize for others and of course, leaving a lot of time for play.  I’m a sentimental type of person, and sometimes, I see people in the library or walking down the street and I feel this urgency to meet up for “one last time,” study together for “one last time,” and then I feel very very weepy.

One of my hopes for this blog was to explain the name and the title.  I thought it was a clever way of incorporating this “search for the elusive  snark” and little witticisms.  Recently, as I’m trying to figure out where to go after graduate school, how to plan my ideas for The Mind Garden or whether to jump head first into different nonprofit start-ups, this chunk of Lewis Carroll’s The Hunting of the Snark resonates more deeply.

” ‘But oh, beamish nephew, beware of the day,
If your Snark be a Boojum! For then
You will softly and suddenly vanish away,
And never be met with again!’

I have goals and I have dreams that I am hunting.  But if it’s the wrong Snark, if it’s a Boojum, “you will softly and suddenly vanish away, / And never be met with again!”  I feel that although I’m surrounded by much passion, sometimes, I feel sad at the meaninglessness of being only full of passion, even if it is properly guided or stems from well-meaning thoughts.  I wonder a lot for myself, what does it matter if I gain my whole world, but then lose that which put meaning into it in the first place?  (Mt. 16:26, Mk. 8:36, Lk 9:25).

I was sad when I saw the melting ice rink.

It was by The Charles Hotel.  The weather has been in the 50s and 60s lately, and I love it. I take walks around the Charles River.  I squeal with delight when I walk outside, brace myself for the cold, and realize that it’s warmer outside than indoors.  I sort of wish I’d had seen more snow.  It was not as cold as it could have been.  I did not utilize all the gear I brought.  Which, I guess, brings me to my next point.  Should I give Boston another year, another try?

Okay, it’s not just weather.  I’ve been working with this woman I met through a case we studied in Monica Higgins’s class, Leadership, Entrepreneurship, and Learning.  At first, I thought this lady was crazy!  (This phenomenon happened often: I’d think whatever the subject was going to launch, it wouldn’t happen, and then somehow, it did).  Anyway, I met with her because I was interested in her work, and after working with her, I’m still interested in her work.  Just that, right now she’s starting out and I’m not really getting paid – which is totally fine for grad school, but not fine after I graduate.  BUT, today I was thinking, what if I get a “chiller” job at the University and spend another year in Boston, keep on working with her, and also further my education just a smidge more (I’d love to audit Elmore and a bilingual literacy course).  I think a lot of pros could come from this.

Of course, I’m applying to jobs in SF.  I’m also opening myself up for international work because I feel that professionally, since I’m still young, I’d have more responsibilities and more opportunities to learn on the job.  Anyway, as I think out loud (out print?  on print?), I still haven’t finished editing my resumes or writing cover letters.  So, this is definitely just empty theorizing.

My Last Spring Break

That title sounds like that of a Korean Drama or a movie, huh?  It’s nothing that dramatic though.  This is hopefully my last year as a student; hence, it’s my last spring break.

The theme of this spring break will be (get ready for it): Girls Gone Mild!

The HS English teacher, the Kindergarten teacher, and I, all decked out for "Nerd Day." This was the day when I the math teacher walked into my class (we shared a room), looked right over my head and asked the class, "Where is your teacher?"

The reason I’m sharing this with you is because as a blogger, I know that what I write will be preserved forever (thank you, Google, I think).  Also, as a reader, you guys get to hold me accountable and make sure I get stuff done.

My classmates aren’t really going wild though.  Many are going on career trips to DC and NY (future HGSE’ers: you guys should really ask them to bring back the SF trip).  Some people are going on school visit trips in Jamaica and Finland.  The rest are visiting home or working here.  Yes, that’s HGSE for you: busy, busy, busy.

I’m staying here because I have 1 paper due during spring break (class-wide extensions = double-edged sword), 3 papers due after Spring break, and I’m going to California that following weekend (for a Cal/West connection event, visiting a charter school, going to a friend’s wedding).  Thus, I gotta work!  (I’m also tutoring a few of my students from Harvard Bridge).

I also want to start researching jobs and applying.  Last weekend, I spent one whole period of unplugged Mac time (about 4 hours since I was playing music too), looking up interview outfits.  Counting a lot of eggs before they hatch.  Okay, counting a lot of eggs before I even have any.

Wednesday through Friday, though, I’m going to NYC with my cousin.  We’re seeing Spiderman: Turn off the Dark!  I’m really excited.  I’m also going to go super tourist and see the Statue of Liberty, the Guggenheim, and the Met.  Oh, and I’m going to eat.  Lastly, we want to visit the World Trade Center. I think I have to go there.  It’s nonnegotiable.

Then during the weekend, I’m going to catch up on everything else I need to finish up.

Goals:

  • Finish my midterm for Charter Schools.
  • Have first draft of Adolescent Literacy final paper done to talk about with a classmate when she returns.
  • Research for Reading Difficulties paper (on teacher support training for LD students)
  • Finish rough draft above paper
  • Figure out the company to research for my Reimers class.
  • Start the draft
  • Finish the draft?
  • Update resume
  • E-mail a person for more info
  • Figure out what to do with my life / where to go after I graduate (the Bay? stay here? leave the country?)
  • Write at least 3 cover letters (aka apply to at least 3 places)
  • Read… and stay on top of my regular duties

Okay, I’ll try to 65% of the above before Wednesday, and the rest on Saturday and Sunday.

I also want to play here in Boston.  I’m going to brunch with a dear classmate in a few minutes, we’re going to study, and then we’re going to go swing dancing (yikes).  Tomorrow, I’m going to church and then babysitting some kids afterwards.  Next Saturday, I’m going to lunch with some good friends from college.  And then the next 2 weeks will be a whirlwind of visiting CA, being visited, and then, it will be a chill period of a paper every other week.  Then finals. Then, oh my gosh, I’m graduating.

Thoughts on the Impact of Mission: Alice speaks to Cheshire Cat

The Cat only grinned when it saw Alice. It looked good-natured, she thought: still it had very long claws and a great many teeth, so she felt that it ought to be treated with respect.

`Cheshire Puss,’ she began, rather timidly, as she did not at all know whether it would like the name: however, it only grinned a little wider. `Come, it’s pleased so far,’ thought Alice, and she went on. `Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?’

`That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,’ said the Cat.

`I don’t much care where–‘ said Alice.

`Then it doesn’t matter which way you go,’ said the Cat.

`–so long as I get somewhere,’ Alice added as an explanation.

`Oh, you’re sure to do that,’ said the Cat, `if you only walk long enough.’

Professor Reimers brought this up as he was lecturing on mission.  [Boy, I could listen to him talk forever, he’s such a good speaker!]  Anyway, it made me think.  I’m still thinking.

I mean, I thought I would know where I would want to be by March, but March is coming up in nine days.  I guess I’m at a point where if I go for Plan A, it almost feels like I’m really propelling my way down one track.  Whereas if I go for Plan B, then I may be choosing a “safer route” but may lose sight of the whole reason for why I came to HGSE in the first place.

“Follow your passions.”  This could appear naive, but  I think … it’s very possible.  Just scary.  Should I make the plunge down the rabbit hole?

Charting My Course 2011

[This was something I wrote privately on December 1st, 2011.  I wanted to share it because even in the course of 1 short month, where I was able to go home and relax and recalibrate, I feel so much better!]

Today was the last day of my classes for my first semester at HGSE.  During my last class, A608 Leadership, Entrepreneurship, and Learning, our professor had us fill out this quick, introspective “map” of our future.

She first had us categorize ourselves in terms of Confidence and Clarity.

Visualize a simple chart with Confidence on one axis and Clarity on the other.  You can place yourself either in High Confidence+High Clarity, High Confidence+Low Clarity, Low Confidence+High Clarity, and Low Confidence+Low Clarity (eeps).  Based on the categorization, we had to answer a few questions.

I put myself in the High Confidence+Low Clarity group because I do feel confident that I’ll like where I end up.  But, that’s mainly because of my history with a less-than-ideal boss (euphemism of the year), unemployment, and all that jazz, my standards are so low that any job seems like cake.  Also, I feel confident in terms of ability and being at HGSE puts me in a good place in terms of connections (just being frank).  Yet I do lack clarity in that I feel that there are two paths that I could pursue; teaching or something more analyst-y or consultant-y.  It’s hard because I’m pretty sure that if I chose the former, I wouldn’t gain the broad business mindset I’d need to start the Mind Garden.  If I choose the latter, I feel like traditional teachers will look down on me for not being “legitimate”.

My concrete steps in filling these knowledge gaps is to continue working with people who are at the place where I eventually want to me and to still keep doors open for teaching jobs (I’m currently a teaching placement organization).  I guess I might take an HBS course too.

I guess the obstacles I’m facing is that I feel overwhelmed with too many opportunities and choices — what I choose means saying “No” to other things that I feel that I could do.  Also, I feel like I don’t have time!  And finally, I do feel intimidated – it sometimes feels like I’m the only one acting and everyone else has it put together.

The last question “how will I contract with myself to overcome these challenges” was realizing that I do have a blog, and that YOU guys can keep me accountable.  So I’m going to blog again and just try to work on getting more prepared.

Currently I’ve learned a lot in just one semester.  I feel that I have a better understanding of leadership and nonprofit finances and that I also have gained confidence in that I do have skills that I didn’t know were marketable (ie: social media).  I need to gain more specific experiences and also seriously calculate the logistics behind the Mind Garden.  I guess in order to do this, my next step is to maintain relationships with colleagues and reconnect with people from the past.

As one girl mentioned, perhaps my fears are the result of my projecting what I feel about myself onto how I think others might perceive me.  And another girl said that she HAD been learning before she came here.. and there’s no reason why she won’t when she leaves.  Which is True.

Anyway, this next week will be finals and then I’ll be coming home.  It’s scary how things are hurtling by so quickly.