I have a personal problem where when something difficult peers over my life’s horizon, I go into denial and procrastination mode.
Leetle by leetle, I’m doing better… mainly because honestly? It makes my God happy when I try my best.
Last month, I spent one week feverishly cramming for the first of three math CSET exams (In CA, you need to take 3 subtests to earn a math teaching credential… although I don’t know why I have to get one since my multiple subject cred technically covers up through 8th grade and I doubt any 8th grader will be learning calculus no matter what’s in Common Core…).
I felt pretty despondent about it because I honestly knew very little. No, I’m not being modest. At one point I wrote in the free response section, “Hello, I plan to teach in urban Oakland where there are very little qualified math teachers. As you can see, I’m a creative problem solver and I am great at explaining my thinking. Please be gentle.” Or something along those lines – basically appealing to their pathos.
Now in two weeks, I have the third subtest (CSET III for trig and calc). Two days after, I’ll have the second subtest. I just don’t have time to do them any time else.. although now that I think about it, if I don’t pass, I might as well have just scheduled these for later. (20/20 hindsight).
To add to all this unmotivation is the fact that trigonometry kicked my BUTT in high school and although I loved calc, I can’t say I really remember any of it. (Truly, a 5 on an AP Calc exam doesn’t really work 10 years later..).
BuuUUuuUUuuut…just now, I figured out the cosine of 5pi/4 by drawing a picture .. so now I feel a leeeetle better about my prospects.
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